I can feel myself starting to feel again.. for months I held back.. for months my barriers went up.. but sometimes, some people melt them.. It's hard, because the first instinct is to protect, to not get attached, to not feel, to keep them at arms length to ensure you don't get hurt all over again. But I've never really learnt that way. I expose myself everytime.. I allow people in, I allow myself to be vulnerable, I allow myself to feel.. and you know what? That's just the way I like it.. to do anything else would be to deny myself of what I'm feeling.. to do anything less than feel how I'm feeling would be to block that person out of my life.. And that is something I'm not a fan of. I like to feel, i love to love, I enjoy connection. So bring it! whatever you are, whatever you'll be, I'm embracing it like always..

ramble..

If someone told you your brain was in your foot, would you be able to believe them? Would you be able to feel it there? Or what if you found out it was in your torso, hidden beside your heart. Can you feel your brain in your head? When you think, is that where you direct your thoughts to? Do you imagine that space between your ears? Your mind.. what if it all came from somewhere near your butt. When we laugh or cry or something touching happens, why do we touch our heart? Why does it seem like our heart is providing the feelings-we touch it rather than say..our heads.. where our brains are. But we feel it in our hearts. Or do we? Do we think we feel it there, and envisage it there as a direct result of our conditioning?

Just a thought...